A Nature-al Mom

It isn’t a wonder some animals an insects eat their young.

Although I wouldn’t want to even think about the mode of delivery cooking or otherwise I am finding some very trying times with my daughter.  How is it you can want someone so badly, give your life for the little buggers, put your body in a expanded mode for 9 months and they have their claws out ready to blind you.  You put out money for dance lessons, shoes for every outfit and mommy please is programmed into their very vocabulary before they can even walk.    I have always heard about the relationship with mothers and daughters and never could understand how that would even begin to happen to me.

I now realize they are fighting for a place, they are in takeover mode, ready to boot you out in the drop of a hat or stuff you into a nursing home.  “There is Scrabble and puzzles, bingo night and bring a covered dish night at least twice on the monthly calender.”  That’s what I have to look forward too.  Well, I think I’ll spend the inheritance, even if at this point it is a few antique bowls, some pearls and a few other items laying around.   It isn’t like Japan where they respect and revere their elders, look up to them with the wisdom they have for living longer and enduring lifes hardships as well as the happy times and the best part is they move in with their kids.  Of course they take care of the grandchildren and teach them well.  I know this is natures course and how I handle my part is really a key in  this, hopefully teaching patience,  wisdom and  loving kindness as well.  

This definately give second thought to how you have your kids for dinner.

No matter what I still love her.

🙂

That Day on the 14th!

On one of my  favorite sites, Without Wax ,is asking a poignant question about Valentines Day and going back to the basics…basically?  Please check it out.
That made  me think about the shoe boxes we would bring in and transform into decorated holders of precious valentines.   I would always make sure mine had glitter all over it and plenty of hearts.
Does anyone else remember what made Valentines special to you, inside or outside the classroom? Do you remember that special secret admirer, did you ever meet your secret admirer? What is your favorite candy, do you like the hearts with all the surgary words and phrases? What is it about Valentines Day that sends you?  Do you wax nostalgic ( no pun intended Pete) in the Victorian Age or are you all set for Sponge Bob Square Pants?  No matter what level of love you are intending for the other, you can rest assured, we all need it.  It is what makes the world go round!

Happy Valentines Day Y’all!

Her Eyes Became Green

Manic, Bi-Polar, what do these terms mean to you? Have they affected you in anyway?

Just about 4 years ago we learned our mother was bi polar and as shocking as this was it was also a huge relief. A release of air, an exhale of oh now I get it and an answer to many questions as well as many blanks being filled in. After all this time it put a face to the reason.

I remember many times growing up when my mother did or said things I couldn’t understand. My friends even questioned some of the actions and comments. Exasperation happened in many people but the hardest to accept is what did she feel? She had a hard time, I know it, I lived with her, I was there I didn’t understand and even with the answer it is difficult.

Now there are answers to others that are struggling to correct behaviour, not an excuse because we have a solution but a remedy to fix a struggle, an iron to tame the wrinkles in our lives.
Some have gone their whole life as if on a roller coaster never ending and wondering when they can get off. Others have the ticket and choose not to. Pity and shame. I could slap the hand of those, instead I choose to pat the back of the other.
Who are you?

Absolutely Nothing

If I was on a deadline I’d be in serious trouble.  I’m sitting here trying to think of intelligent interesting things to write but instead I come up with Seinfeld like subject matter.  Nothing!!! absolutely nothing. 

It is dull and overcast with a chance of showers today, the kind of weather that usually stirs up a headache.  My house has lots of projects left to do and all I ‘d prefer is to take a walk to the diner for a cup of coffee.  I have finished my assignment for my upcoming writing class and hopefully it is above reproof.  My dog could stand to be walked and Dennys is having a grand slam give away tomorrow.  Normally I’d never go there but free is free and I like free right now.  I may walk out of there tomorrow with intestinal regrets but it is something to do somewhere to go. 

Job hunting I believe has been invented by the same person that came up with pantyhose and bras.  It is a necessary evil and to keep your spirits up among other things and food in your stomach it just has  to be.   I will  approach that on Wednesday with  the intensity of a seamstress during wedding season but  today it is the washer/dryer combo, my value meal so to speak, if I want to finish my laundry and clean up this mess and that’s  thanks to a repairman that couldn’t do his job correctly. 

I know there is a silver lining, I’d prefer gold, and it is around the corner, but sometimes you have to cross the street go through a tunnel, fly across the freeway and after all that a game of twenty questions and a shower awaits you.  In the game of life I believe I may be about to cross the freeway but already have dealt with the twenty questions some folks believe they are entitiled to  ask me because they can! 

 Is it paid my dues or paved the way to my dues…either way  it ain’t over till the fat lady sings and Simon and Randy have given away that golden ticket. 

How’s that for nothing!